A DIFFICULT MONTH.
It’s been one of those moths, you know, when it has just been one thing after another? Positive things will happen and, for some reason, it is just followed by a stream of shitty things that just makes it difficult to focus on the positive things. I hate my head for that.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had some positive things happen in my life recently and everything was going great. My head knew something shitty was coming but it just came in waves. I think it makes me feel worse when it comes in waves because, as I’m about to get through the shit, the next shit knocks me back down. Fun, right?
Why it’s been a difficult time for me:
- Increase in pain
- Increase in water infections (this will be fun when I go back for surgery)
- Increase in self-doubt
- Rejection (always a fun one, especially when it’s something your’e passionate about)
- Still waiting on news on surgery date so I can actually have an idea how to move forward in life
- Still a lack of work
- Sometimes my head is just really shitty and it has been the month of a shitty head.
Sometimes you get shitty months. I just hate shitty months more now where it just makes my health worse. Sometimes you get a shitty head and want to ignore the world. You aren’t ignoring people to hurt them, you just need time to breathe and find some clarity again. Honestly, it just adds to feeling worse because you din’t want to bring others down because your head is shitty.
Nothing education here. Nothing insightful. Just me venting at the end of a shitty month. If you still read these posts then a big thank you.
This could just me me talking to myself.
