WHATDOYOUSEEINME

I guess it’s difficult for anyone to understand why people even like you. Maybe it’s just me and my own head who thinks like that. Or maybe everything that has happened in the last five years alone have really impacted the way I see myself and the way I think others actually see me.

It’s been difficult really, the past couple of months with everything coming to an end and the next part of life begins. It’s definitely given me too much more time in my head. Everything is difficult right now. I don’t feel good enough for anything or anyone most days. It’s frustrating because so many good things have happened in the past couple of months but then sometimes it doesn’t feel enough. On top of that, I just can’t seem to understand why anyone would want to be part of my life that’s so full of up and downs with my head to my physical health.

Sometimes I get a bad head.

Some days I’m in too much pain.

Sometimes I forget almost everything.

Some days I can’t walk far.

Sometimes I want to be alone.

Some days I want to be clingy.

Sometimes I can’t hold the toilet.

Some days aI can’t tell you what’s wrong.

Sometimes I cry a lot.

Some days all I want is my partner.

There’s so many things that make me question what people see in me and it’s difficult most days to understand why people are in my life. Those days I’m always saying in my head “what do you see in me?”